“Results..”

So it’s been a while since I blogged last. I’ve had a hard time processing everything. I’ve since received my biopsy “results.” That’s in quotes since they found nothing so they’re calling it IBS. I call it BS.¬† This seems to be the way it always goes for me. Something is very wrong, I know in my “knower” there’s more then IBS happening but Docs don’t believe me. I even asked the doc if 8 months of fissures that caused me the worst pain of my life come from IBS? He couldn’t answer me.

I forgot to ask if being on Enbrel might have masked things, since the fissures cleared up when I went on it. They didn’t get to see them. My friend who battles crohns said it could definitely mask things and just because they didn’t find things in the scope or biopsies doesn’t mean they’re not there.

This is how it went before I ended up losing my bladder to IC (aka lupus they didn’t know I had back then).

This is how it went for three years trying to get answers with regards to my joint pain. Nothing showed up in my blood work other then being ANA positive which they decided was a false positive. It wasn’t. Guess what? All along I had RA and Lupus and I knew it. Trying to get docs to believe me was the problem. It wasn’t until Raynauds showed up in front of my Dr. that he finally believed something was very wrong. I had already gone through 2 Rheumies that blew me off and a pain clinic prior to this.Then I was finally offered a referral to the Internist who knew I was really ill as soon as he saw me. He diagnosed me that day and started me on meds that day. Next time I saw him, he changed his mind. And so it went back and forth for a time until I was sent to another Rheumie, who knew something autoimmune was going on but because I didn’t fit her box, she called it mixed connective tissue disease not yet determined. Say what?! In other words, something is wrong but we don’t know what.¬† Oh and by the way RA is now showing up in my blood work I found out at this appointment. My inflammation markers are up. Add in the doc tells me I have protein in my urine again too. Not as bad as before but my kidneys are being watched closely for lupus nephritis.

Having said that I was also trying to tell the doc I can’t walk on my foot because of my big toe joint pain and locking. He shrugged and said take anti- inflammatories. Ummm..I have strict instructions not to take any since my kidneys are at risk. I’m allowed one Advil a day and that’s pushing it. How does he not know this when I tell him every time I’m in there and he has it in his records. He knows they’re dangerous for my kidneys, not to mention my gut. So even though I’m already on Percocet¬†, he scripts me Tramadol for my foot pain and explains it away as my RA. I know it’s my RA, but what can we do to fix it?! I was hoping to be referred to an orthopedic surgeon, but apparently Tramadol is going to fix things. Not! I told him no cortisone shots but he tried to suggest it anyway.

It gets better (Insert sarcasm). He asked me who scripted me Viberzi for my gut. Again say what? I looked at him and said, “You did.” It’s like he doesn’t know me at all after having been his patient for 6 years. So for now I’m still on Viberzi and left with nowhere else to turn for help even though I know something is wrong.. I also had to ask him about the ulcers they found in my stomach during the scope. He actually asked me if my stomach hurt. *By this point I wonder if I was visibly shaking my head.* Yes it hurts hence the damn tests. So he gave me ppi’s for that. So far they haven’t helped but we’ll see.

I guess as usual I will be waiting until I reach a crisis to actually get answers for what’s wrong with my gut. Sad that the system works this way. I would have asked for a referral to specialists but I know my GP would not have referred me. When I first asked to see the Internist about my joint pain the doc said and I quote, “He won’t be interested in you.” Gee thanks.

So I know unless my GP has something visual he won’t refer me to any specialists.

I told him about my gallbladder pain and he ignored me. Arrghhh. Why can’t I just get a Dr. that listens and wants to actually help? That shouldn’t be too much to ask. We can’t just switch Dr.’s up here or I would.

On a bit of a different note. I have now set up an autoimmune disease support group on FB. It’s s a closed group so there will be complete privacy and freedom to share things we otherwise wouldn’t. If any of you are interested in joining I’ve posted the link below. If you know of anyone you think might be interested or benefit. Feel free to share the link. I’d love to have you join.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/crankypantsautoimmunediseaesupport/

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