Alyssa says she’s honoured to guest post on my blog but I feel like I’m the one honoured to have her guest posting. Her attitude with her hard fought battle against chronic illness inspires me, helps keep me going and makes me smile. Welcome Alyssa from https://fightmsdaily.com/about-me/ I’m so happy to have you here. I’m sure you will enjoy her posts as much as I do! Don’t forget to drop by her blog! Just hit the green link above. – CrankyPants
I feel so honored to have been asked to do a guest blog for Cranky Pants! I am excited to be able to share my experiences on another blog with hopes that how I deal with my illness will be helpful to others.
Learning to master the art of living with a chronic but invisible illness can be fairly difficult at times. I was rather young when the doctor told me that I had Multiple Sclerosis. At 19, I was shocked, terrified and confused because I had only known one person with MS and she was my father’s wife, we are NOT related by blood! All I could think at the time was that I was too young to be diagnosed with a debilitating illness that did not have a cure. I was convinced that I would be in a wheelchair before my 25th birthday and that my life would be over!
It has been almost 17 years since I was diagnosed and I am still alive and walking without assistance! I have had many setbacks over the years, but do find it important to hold onto positive thoughts because the negative will only destroy passions for life. Once I started accepting my diagnosis, I promised myself that I would never allow MS to control my life but that I would control the illness!
In the early years of coping with this illness, I felt shame and did not want anyone to know what I was faced with in life. I felt that people automatically judge others that have a disability, even if it is not really seen! I never wanted to talk about it with anyone and kept all my feelings bottled up inside and choose a bad way to handle my emotions. I started drinking more than I should have, especially because alcoholism runs in my family. I thought that if I was drinking, I would not feel the pain and sense of loss of my normal body. My issue with alcohol only continued for a few months and I ended up catching myself going down a really bad road. I think it is normal to try to find an outlet from our struggles and sometimes they are really bad choices. But even if you fall down a bad path, you can correct the issues with strength and courage. I am sharing this to let people know that no matter what you struggle with there is always a way to make the wrongs right again!
Life comes with so many twists and turns through the years that it can get so frustrating. However, I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and somehow what is meant to be will be! For some unknown reason, I am the only person in my family that has to deal with MS. I thought maybe it is because I do have the strength to fight fearlessly and never give in to the relentless challenges I have to overcome. Or maybe I was dealt this hand in life because I can actually help others battle their struggles incessantly. Who knows? But I will continue to fight until my last breath because we all have only one shot to live our lives the way we want to!
I sincerely hope that you have enjoyed reading the shortened version of my experience with the invisible illness I have been plagued with in life. I hope you can feel in this blog how hard I do fight for my wellness and that I have the determination to win!